If I’m being honest with myself, I admit I’m feeling a little exhilarated. And scared. Not sure which side is winning. But I think the scared part is just because all this is new and exciting but also because I don’t really trust guys a lot. Maybe it’s because of my family but yeah. That’s why it’s so scary how easily I trust you. Feels like it shouldn’t be this easy, that I’m just setting myself up for some big disappointment in the future. And I know I should just cast it aside and just go along with it cos you never grow as a person if you never do new things. Easier said than done though.
And today started out so well too. Super productive with my midterm essay in the morning (having a lounge to yourself is so good, there’s so much space), lunch with Fangy and Jacq (and the limb sandwich haha), finally bumping into you just before going to IMH. Tried your iced milk tea, which was surprisingly good, and it was just so nice to talk to you in person after all this while. And IMH was a really eye-opening experience. Didn’t know that there used to be bars everywhere that it kind of looked like a prison. Felt so bad for all the patients at that time :/
And then, tonight. I still feel happy and super excited for the movie. But I’m not gonna get my hopes up. I’m just gonna treat it like a friends thing (and it could really be; like the whole gang might be there as well) and just try to go with the flow.
Also, sidenote, Tumblr is acting really weirdly on BOTH Chrome and Firefox that I’m typing all this on freaking Internet Explorer. Can’t reblog, can’t like, can’t even do a text post. You know something major is up when you have to rely on Explorer -.-